Sunday, December 21, 2008

Here We Are

It has been a rough two weeks here. Kaitlyn's stomach pains seems to be with her everyday and lasting longer. I am the only one who really sees this, it seems like. I think some of it is anxiety whenever her stomach starts to hurt. After putting the girls to bed each night, it seems she calls me at least twice if not three times for me to come up stairs to comfort her. I feel so empty because I don't know how to help her. I have prayed over her and talked to her. I don't have a solution and she understands this. I know I give her comfort and I am glad. I may not have the solution but we are working together in finding one. We have a docotor's appt. at 1:30 tomorrow, we are meeting with the pediatric surgeons. I am not sure what is going to happen. I don't want her to have surgery but will do what needs to be done so she can have a normal life without her stomach hurting. She is nervous about it, which I can understand. The unknown is always scary. As I was reading through my cousin's blog, she talks about her little boy who has many setbacks and a lot of physically challenged problems. When I read her blog their was a verse from the bible, one she found strength in. The one she uses from her most recent blog is from Corinthians, No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him. I Corinthians 2:9. I take comfort in this verse, knowing God has plans for Kaitlyn and she will get through this. This is such a small thing compared to my cousin's everyday struggles with her son. I know my cousin has such great faith in our Almighty God even though she struggles with things everyday. I look at her blog and love seeing the faith she has and the ever growing of it. She is a wonderful mother and puts all she has into taking care of her children.

I trust in God and lean on Him to help me through. I have asked for a lot of patience and for Him to give me a more loving heart toward this situation. Sometimes it is easier to be a little indifferent because I just can't take away the pain. All I know is God is in control and I have to trust in Him. "Trust in the LORD with all your hardt and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6

I Carry Your Heart E.E. Cummings

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Anita Renfroe